My husband and I have had the same tug-o-war conversation ever since we started dating our freshmen year in college.
He would ask, "Where do you want to eat?"
I would reply, "I don't care, you pick".
He would then come back and say, "Just pick".
This conversation would go back and forth until we would get frustrated with each other because we wanted the other one to just make a decision.
So I have learned to be precise and concise with my request for a meal instead of just saying "I'm hungry". I tell my husband exactly what I want to eat now and it happens.
Why would I not tell my husband, actually boyfriend when these eating conversations first began, where I really want to eat? First, I didn't want to ask too big because it might cost too much. Or what if that was not where he really wanted to eat. I wanted to eat where he wanted to go and then I would just find something when I got there.
But what my husband really wanted was to know exactly what I was wanting to eat or "dreaming of".
It's the same with God. . . what am I hungry for. . . what do I desire. . . what am I dreaming of. . .
For the longest I would dream too big because I didn't want to seem selfish in my desires. Who am I to dream dreams that big? Why am I worthy of having a life of abundance?
But what I have learned is that God, just like my husband, wants me to have whatever I desire. My husband knows what I like to eat, but he continues to ask just to make sure that is what I still desire.
God can not take me to my "restaurant of desires" if I do not specifically ask Him for the directions and the menu. He wants to take me there, but He is waiting to see where I want to go. God knows my heart and desires, but He also wants me to have a relationship with Him. He tells us in scripture to ASK!
So I ask and then pray, but then I assume or get sidetracked with life, just like I do with my husband, and forget to ask or I let doubt enter that I am worthy of that "expensive meal" of dreams.
I'm dreaming big, but sometimes I let doubt get into my head and that mean ugly devil tries to convince me that my dream is impossible for me to accomplish. . . who am I to dream dreams that big??? I'm not equipped or strong enough to walk the journey that is ahead of me to make that dream come true. . . ugly thoughts whisper in my head.
These are times that I have to step back from all the overwhelming feelings and remind myself that I am a child of God. . . I am a Princess. . . I am a daughter of the One True King!!! I am beautifully and wonderfully made perfect.
How dare I let the devil in my head when God has brought me through so much! I get mad at myself when I forget just how big my God really is and that He can accomplish what I can not. In my weakest moments I have learned full well of His strength.
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” -Psalm 139:14
I believe God wants us to DREAM BIG!
Faith is believing that God has big plans for you. . . He dreams big dreams for you, bigger than we can dream for ourselves, and He has the power to make those dreams come true!
God gave us the ability to be creative and an imagination to dream the impossible.
With faith, dreams are not impossible!
If you want big dreams to come true, you first have to pray big. Pray for those impossible dreams. . . dreams that only God can fulfill. When you dare ask for that dream, you are showing God that you have faith that He can do it.
Believe that nothing is too big for God!
Too many times we sit back and just dream of the life we want, but we do not pray about and let God turn the impossible into the possible.
I find myself praying, but then I get caught up in the process of trying to accomplish the dream that I forget to hand it completely over to God. I have to keep my eyes and mind on God's ability and not my ability separate from His. I can not accomplish my dream without God; therefore, I must continuously pray big while I am taking action towards the dream.
Action without prayer is an idle dream. . . a dream that lacks faith. . . a dream that lacks direction from our Creator that gave us the ability to dream.
It is hard for us to fulfill a dream alone, but with God nothing is too hard.
Jeremiah 32:27, “I am the LORD, the God of all the peoples of the world. Is anything too hard for me?”
God tells us to call upon Him and to let Him go to the ends of the earth for us. It says in Psalm 2:8 that God wants to give us an inheritance and the ends of the earth our possession. . . Do you truly believe this? If so, ASK FOR IT!
I am asking and then I am going to ask some more. God wants me to ask!!! He wants you to ask!
See, when I changed the dialogue with my husband when it came time to choose a restaurant, our conversations and dinner were a lot more peaceful. It allowed our relationship to grow. I learned to trust that my husband would tell me that the restaurant was too expensive or not what he wanted at that time.
This is true for my relationship with God. I have learned to ask for my heart's desires and dreams and trust that He will lead me where He ultimately wants me for my own good.